Revelations on Hunger.

So, I have this friend [who shall henceforth go unnamed, but he knows who he is and probably so do most of my friends, sooo... *shrug*].  Whenever we hang out, it seems of late, he's always trying to get me to eat food.  And not healthy food, like brownies and cookies and Chinese donuts and lots and lots of carbs [which I need no help eating since I have a bit of a love affair with all the carbs].  I joke and say that he's bad for my health.  In fact, the last time we studied at the library, he attempted to encourage me to eat an egg roll stuffed inside of the day old bread I bought from Jimmy Johns.  Who does that?  

Anyway, as he was trying to push his unwanted food on me, I began thinking.  Almost every time he tries to make me eat food, I start out by saying no.  By the end of the time we've been hanging out, I've compromised and eaten at least a little bit of what he's been pushing on me. In this case, I ended up taking the egg roll back to my room and eating it just before bed [the day old bread was finished off for breakfast this morning].  

But the whole idea sort of got me thinking.  This is the sort of thing we go through every day.  We as humans are constantly hungering.  We hunger for God, but we often try to fill it with something else.  Even as Christians, we are constantly at odds with ourselves.

And then there's Satan.  He sits there, constantly telling us to eat the "cookie".  Just give in to what you really want, and it'll all be over.  He promises to leave us alone if we just satisfy ourselves instead of honoring God with our lives.

And, often times, I find myself giving into that urge, compromising myself and choosing to do a little bit of what I want and a little bit of what I know God wants for me.  And in the end, I'm left unsatisfied and still plagued by the rest of what the world has to offer.  Just like when I take a little bit of what my friend tries to force-feed me.  

I guess that's something I need to work on.  And it looks like it's gonna be a life-long process.  Because my selfishness will ALWAYS want to eat that darn cookie, or egg roll, or whatever in order to get short-lived, yet immediate satisfaction.  

I just have to remind myself that one day, in the future I can't foresee  my God has got an awesome feast up there waiting for me, better and more satisfying than I could ever imagine.