Looking Around.

There are a lot of sayings telling us were to look.  Look at your past to see who you've become.  Look ahead to see where you want to go.  Look where you are, and live in the present.  Look up to see the possibilities.  Look down to know where you're going.  Look inside yourself to see who you are.  

It's hard to know where to look.  

Sometimes, I just wish that I could go around life with my eyes closed. When everything is going out of control and I just can't seem to make sense of it all.  

That's how I felt the last few weeks.  Last week of classes. Exams. Moving back home. Getting ready to work for Deep Impact.  It's all been a lot.  And I've almost felt like I've just wanted to close my eyes and breathe.  Letting the world rush past me, feeling everything moving, but not moving myself.  

It seems nicer that way.  Let everything else keep going and leave me behind.  

But that is not what I am called to.  

I am called to be here, to fulfill my purpose on this earth as designed for me by my wonderful, loving, amazingly beautiful Lord.  He has a plan for me, and if I'm here, it's because He still has purpose for me.  I'm meant to be here. I'm meant to do something, not just let everything happen around me.  

My past is there to shape me like clay into the vessel God needs.  My future is dictated by the one who holds my life.  I am here for a specific purpose that I am fully equipped to handle.  God is above me, guiding me towards everything I need.  I know I am walking on solid ground, because I have put my faith in my Savior, who is a firm foundation.

And when I look inside myself, I see a child of God, a wonderful creation that has been made new for him.  The orphan He saw in the muck and filth of her sin and somehow decided she was worth everything to Him.  Whom He plucked out of the dirt and cleaned in His sacrifice, making her a beautiful princess, heir to His victory and Kingdom.  

So I won't go through life with my eyes closed, no matter how much I want to.  I will go through life looking around, seeing the fingerprint of God everywhere I go.